One year today Nick Sanders died. I've watched all year as my friends have handled what happened so well...I've watched them grown in so many different ways and I've seen them be stronger then even they could've imagined. And I couldn't be more proud!
I wonder if I've grown as much as they have, or if I've handled this whole thing with as much strenght and courage as they have...I know withtout them I wouldn't have gotten through it like I did.
I miss Nick. I miss Nick's smile, his laugh, the way he would sometimes get all shy and quiet, and at other times he could be loud and crazy...I look back and there's so many "what if's"...but it's too late for "what if's". God has done some great things with this tragedy and I couldn't be more thankful. It hurts...alot. But I know that I just need to look to God and get my strength from him. Nick was an awesome guy...always ready to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry on...he was great with kids and his smile would always brighten your day and make you smile too. I wish Nick was still here...getting ready to graduate and go to college...but he's not, and by the grace of God I'm coming to a point where I'm finally realizing that, and am slowly, very slowly, moving on.
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