Oh boy.

Today was quite a day. Pretty good day at work I'd say. Something I definitly wasn't planning on doing was done. It all goes back to September 18th.

I'll think that I'm finally beginning to get over it. To actually move on and live my life the way I did before. Then all those emotions and memories of such a horrible point in my life are all dug up again. Such raw emotions felt all over again and it rips me apart! I know this isn't how he'd want me to feel. How he'd want any of us to feel. And we are honestly trying to move past this and remember the good times, but we can't be expected to just not feel anything. Anyways, I'm going to go watch American Idol and just kinda turn off my mind (yea right!). Maybe things will look better in the morning. Night!